In a single moment,
in the silence of her questions,
every memory was
walled,
every moment was cemented
in the ground.
In a moment the warmth
of her smile,
at the touch of your lies,
turned cold.
A heart that loved you,
that opened up
just for you
closed.
"Are you my girl"
you asked,
"Yes, she said"
today she
took back the words
that once put a smile
on your face.
A second chance she
never gave,
except to you.
A second chance that
made her feel
like just maybe
this would work.
A second chance and a
second glance
that forever
broke her heart.
Now, as she erases
your touch on
her life,
erases your memory
from her mind,
She slams the door on what
could have been,
on what should have been.
That small piece she
of herself
that she gave to you
not so long ago,
is the only memory
she can't erase.
Bitterness and anger
hardened the walls that
have started
to rebuild.
Next time you see her,
the love you saw in her eyes,
replaced with pain,
the smile
erased by
tears.
Emptiness is all she feels
now and forever.
Thank you
for playing the game
knowing you
could have stayed away and
spared her all this pain.
Thank you for
tearing down walls,
only to allow her to feel the
pain you planned to cause.
Thank you
for showing me,
never to trust
never to love
and never to undo these
walls
for you or anyone.
Don't give him so much power. He has been honing his skills for years and years. You really believed that I (and every other one of his exes) was crazy as a loon? Well, now you see what I went thru to get that way. At least you hadn't invested years like I had and as his ex wives. Are you my girl? Don't feel special. He said the same thing to me too. Did you fuck him? Did he ask who;s pussy that was? Did you give it to him? That;s jusr one of his many lines. He's great at it. Everyone loves him. No one sees him for what he really is.. Be glad you were let go so quickly. He tore my heart out the worst by taking away the children that I raised for 2 years and love more than my own child. It is a fate worse than death sometimes.
ReplyDeleteYou should have stayed in church. you're safe there.
ps . how did you like my home? all the good stuff, i did. pps.. when he came to bakersfield the other weekend for a birthday party he took me out all day saturday and took me back to his hotel room.. twice...
ReplyDeleteI know you love the boys and they love you too.
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