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Today I saw you. 

Today I heard your voice

and still 

I couldn't believe you were 

there, 

standing at my door. 

I looked back to the 

shattered and scattered memories

left lying on the floor

and the image

all to clear 

of my tears on the 

bathroom floor. 

Today I grew a 

little stronger, 

and told you to go. 

My heart broke as I know 

you'll draw me in 

and say goodbye 

in a month or so.

Today I grew a little 

more and held on 

to the me I have become 

since you left. 

Today I know, 

more than you do, 

the girl you 

played for a fool 

is no longer there. 

The girl you took for 

granted has grown 

and will no 

longer be your toy. 

The door is closed 

and you can't 

get back in. 

To let you in 

is to say goodbye to me. 

As when you leave again

I will never 

survive 

losing you once more. 

I will love you forever, 

I will love you to the moon and back,

for as long as I live

my heart will 

be yours, 

but I will not be. 

I will keep you locked away

in a distant memory

of shattered dreams and lost hopes. 

Today, I said goodbye to you 

and hello to me.